February 29, 2024 was probably one of the most transformative days of my life. What started off as a small vote within my work Union quickly turned into a huge shift in my life. It started about 2 weeks when word got out that our Union was holding a secretive vote to raise our dues. I will spare all of you the details on the behind the scenes drama but it caused a huge rift in most of my personal relationships with people I had thought to be closer to me than even my family members. We had traveled together and spent holidays together, worked together for many years, and I thought shared the same views on right and wrong. I was way off and found out very quickly in the form of attacks on Facebook and in person that if you didn't share the opinions of the group you were quickly and swiftly cut off from it. That really hurt. I had spent most of my adult life carefully curating a group of people that I thought I felt safe to express my opinions with and found out very quickly and loudly that this was not the case. It changed who I was as a person.
I'll start by saying that for most people I've had an ideal life (looking in from the outside), but it was made to look like that on purpose. I was raised in a family (divorced parents with step parents and step siblings) where addiction and mental health issues were a daily presence. A father that was an alcoholic and suffered from severe depression and a narcissistic mother who would never (and still will never) admit the issues and problems that she created traumatized her children as well as their father's mental health issues. We were expected to be grateful for whatever minimal amount of love or attention we were given and we were never given support or approval without strings attached. So in my adult life I had tried to control and shield myself from situations that would make me feel that I wasn't in total control. This only made me feel depressed because I couldn't live my authentic life. I was afraid of change and trying new things. I wouldn't go anywhere willingly if I didn't know the parking situation! I couldn't show up and be present for my children, husband, or even closest friends without a huge amount of anxiety. I had developed an addiction to food (mostly sugar) and the most unhealthy eating practices (binging) and had gained about 70-80 lbs from the age of 25-43. I was a walking disaster (physically and mentally) who kept telling herself she was in total control.
In 2022 when my daughter turned 18 I quickly realized I was in control of nothing. After spending an amazing day at the beach with friends and family we woke up the next morning to an email saying our landlord wanted to sell his house and we had 90 days to leave. I really couldn't cope. We had just gone through 3 years on an emotional roller coaster. COVID, loss of my job, a really bad car accident involving my daughter, and just general upheaval of life that I finally felt like we were getting on the other side of all the drama and then suddenly back to the beginning. I won't go into the specifics of it but I was driving down the road one day and for a split second I had the thought "I could drive this car right into a tree right now!' It scared me, like really scared me! I decided it was time for some therapy. I called my doctor and they were just starting an in person program and said I could join and made an appointment that day. I also started to talk about being severely depressed with some close friends and one suggested a Chakra Alignment and the other told me about the anti-depressant she was taking that she thought was really helping. I called for appointments and prescriptions and started all of these healing modalities within a few weeks of each other.
First up was therapy. I met with the therapist and we had a great talk. She gave me some homework to try something I would never do before we met again the next week. Luckily I had my chakra alignment already scheduled so she was happy that I was already one step ahead, For a people pleaser like me this felt great. I was super nervous to go to the chakra alignment but knew that when I got there if it was going to work I had to be 100% honest, so I was. It felt great to tell the truth about how I was feeling and what I didn't like about myself and the woman that facilitated the healing barely spoke. She just asked questions and took notes and told me where she thought I needed to unblock the energy. I felt great afterwards and was able to stay on the medicine and finish the 10 week program of therapy. We found a new house that was close to our old home so my son's school wasn't impacted and everything was going great. 2023 was probably my happiest year as an adult. We travelled to Portugal, Canada, Connecticut, Vermont, Dollywood and Georgia as a family, and my husband and I even got to do a camper van trip to the Grand Tetons and Yellowstone and a cruise to Mexico, Honduras, and the Bahamas to end the year. We even spent the holidays hosting all of our family and friends for Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner.
Then came the vote. Of course it passed because as we know there are no such thing as free and fair elections and I suppose I got the sense that the rift between myself and my friends was not something I wanted to address right away, if at all. I also had made an appointment to get some energy healing done 2 days after said vote and went to a meditation with a holistic energy practitioner (and now mentor) Zenzi Sky the day after all of this happened. It was my first time ever joining something like this but when a woman at work told me about her I immediately (crazy for a habitual procrastinator like me) reached out and made an appointment to go and see her. I made the appointment BEFORE all the drama started. Meditation was something I had started to seriously get into as I used it for a tool to help me deal with the toxic and chaotic work environment I had been stuck in for the better part of 24 years so when I saw that Zenzi was doing guided meditations the day after the vote (and the day before our private session) I signed up to go by myself (I didn't even know the parking situation!) and I nearly talked myself out of it about a million times before I got there but I went and it literally changed my life. The intuitive healing session that followed on March 2, 2024 was both scary accurate and exciting and looking back now when I left that healing session I knew life was going to be very different.
Two months later after a great deal of research and a few more meditation sessions, a couples session, and a solar eclipse in April I was hooked on learning everything I could about energy healing. At first it was Reiki (hands on healing) and I was looking for a program that I thought would be a good fit for me. I came across a woman named Dr. Rebecca Sullivan and she had started an academy (A.W.A.K.E. Academy) that helps people unlock their gifts and teaches us different modalities of healing. And so after speaking with her and going back and forth in my mind (never a great place to make decisions) I knew in my heart (the ONLY place to make decisions) that it was what I needed to do to fulfill my purpose in life. I spent the majority of the summer and fall taking the courses. I was able to heal myself of past traumas at the same time I was learning how to heal others. I am now certified in several modalities of energy healing such as:
Integrative Holistic and Energy Healing
Meditation Coach
NLP Life Coach,
Eye-Movement Integration Practitioner
Hypnotherapy Practitioner
Medical Intuitive
Zero-Point Activations
Reiki Master
What would have taken me years in traditional therapy (which would have brought my healing from the past trauma to "acceptable" therapeutic levels) has been fully healed in a fraction of the time. I no longer experience anxiety about new experiences, most of my physical diseases that I suffered from have been completely reversed and I have even been able to discontinue 99% of medications (including diabetes medication and anti-depressants) that I was put on from 2019-2022. This was done safely under the guidance of a medical doctor. Now I am ready to help others start their journey of self healing, fulfilling their life purpose and turning dreams into reality. I look forward to working with each and every beautiful soul that is ready to transform their life!
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